Expectors can get out of hand at times-grin

"Expector? What is that?"

An "Expector" is that part of one, that "expects" an outcome or result. Sometimes it can get out of hand or unrealistic.

Sometimes it may be completely principled, yet it is still, "unrealistic" in the world we live in.

I just spent -for me, a terribly huge amount of effort and time, to achieve what i personally considered to be a "great achievement." Shared it with BROL and the result was? Really? Hhhhh... LOL! Nuttin'...

Effectively to be "ignored." LOL!

My "expector" sorta got out of hand a little... -grin. It was not too happy. After ALL-look at ALL I WENT THROUGH!!! Don't THEY UNDERSTAND???

Ummm... No, they probably don't, and there is no way they CAN-don't I understand that yet? Apparently not, at least sometimes.... LOL!!!! -Grins...

I live alone. I get no input from anyone. This was ONE TIME when I really, really wanted a pat on the back from someone besides myself. And? Didn't get it.

-shrug.

Ohhhh well. -grin.

But? I was also? Verrrrrry Low on my brain bank as well. Bad combination.

It made for a quite difficult time.

Nice thing?

I have BEEN THROUGH THIS BEFORE. I knew I would get through it, I may write a bit of blather, I may "feel bad," and I might want to sulk a bit. But I KNEW I WOULD GET THROUGH IT.

As I indeed did.

Part of solution was to "take some time off." With "brain bank" being LOW? Working HARDER was the OPPOSITE of what ought be done! Experience has taught me that one certainly!

I do NOT LIKE "taking time off." I don't LIKE it at all! Still? I know it must be done. With broken brain? I have NO CHOICE.

Result?

Coincidentally THIS TIME? I was nearing coming up on 50% in brain bank.

So-attitude, and "expector" was fixing its self a bit quicker, as well as-my need for taking time off was diminishing. Whew! At least for a bit.

I'll grab that and be happy for a bit! 8-)

Brain Injury, combined with ANYTHING is never "good and happy." -shrug. However? There can be happy times within it. If One WORKS FOR THEM.

Some folks refuse to.

I don't.

I have my reasons based upon my life even BEFORE my brain injury.

Since I am "stuck" here-I must make the best of it.

I try to, everyday.

It is NOT a "computer game" and is not instant.

There can still be growth over time however... And that is what I continue to DO. Slowly.

'Nuff of this blather too! -wink

Miles Of Smiles to ya...

Thomas...